Realization of Reality

Last week I have been spending time with corporate engineering group. I am very happy to spend time in this group to see what they do and what I can learn more. To my surprise, despite the manager's well done organization of my stay, the staff were not really helpful. I am sure their work load has something to do with it but what I have noticed is that the level of ego is very high. A know it all group that don't have time for any one else! Had I not studied engineering myself, I would have been fooled in thinking that these people are the smartest individuals in the company! Nevertheless, I found them lacking in a number of qualities that I am glad to have learnt in the past few years in my non-engineering related positions!
What I had pictured in my mind of what an engineering position would look like and the level of technical work associated with it had little resemblance to what I saw in reality in this group.
Come to think of it in the past few years, I tortured myself of why I am not doing what I thought was to be real engineering work. I put my family and my pishi in the never ending drama of "I am wasting my life".
The more I spend time with group, the more I realize that I can do their job with better efficacy and efficiency! The realization of what I have been doing in the past few years, have made a better person of me than had I stayed in engineering department only.
This coming week is the last week of the program and I must say, this last department, has been the icing of the cake!
I am not sure what will happen to me by the end of this week but I know that this full circle had made my life so much more in peace with myself! There has been times, that I would question myself and my abilities and would be depressed why I wasn't given the chance to work in Corporate engineering department at my company and now that I am going through it, I realized, how lucky I was that I never got picked. Had I have been picked, I might not have gotten the chance to go through this program and to even get accepted in this program, as I would not have had the skills required to do so.

Uncertainty

Friday was my last day with packaging group. I learned a lot from this department. I learned their functions but more importantly I had a chance to practice management behaviours, i.e. conflict resolution and effective feedback, that I learned through UP trainings.
Since my personality training, I try to be more detail about people's personality and actively listening to what people say and determine which color group they more or less they belong to. What is funny is that my cousin and I used to spend hours reading astrology books and talking about how to predict people's birth month when we were teenagers! more than 10 years passed and I am revisiting what I was interested as I was growing up!
Presenting at pre-shift meetings everyday, made my presentation skills stronger specially that this group was famous to be a hard group to communicate with! I didn't believe it for a second. I enjoy having people who question their surroundings in my group. I like people who ask questions and want to find better ways of doing things. Those qualities are attributes that I admire and won't consider to be negative. The last pre-shift, I asked them to evaluate on a mini survey I made about supervisory skills and asked them to rate me and leave me any comments if they want. The comments were the interesting and funny part! I burst into laughter when I read one of them who was advising me to cut my hair!! But aside from that it seems that I have left a good taste in their mouth as mostly evaluated me on the high side.

From tomorrow, I will join Corporate Engineering group for two weeks. This group is the group that I have been targeting to learn the most and one of the main reasons that I joined the FLL program. I am very excited and at the same time I am not sure what will happen at the end of the program. I have decided that no matter what happens I will accept the challenge with open arms and I will welcome the opportunity no matter what it is.

My dinner with my classmates went well. My last single friend is engaged and another friend of mine is pregnant. I was thinking that the topics of our conversations have changed so much from 5 years ago when we graduated and was wondering how it would look like in 10 years from now! Then we would reminisce about school and wanting to find jobs and now it's more about money, work and having babys!